Let's try this again...

Wow! I guess blogging IS the new journaling...I find myself ignoring my blogs just as frequently as I ignore my journals, possibly more-so. Odd, since I'm strangely drawn to lurking at the blogs of others. It's interesting isn't it? The way people will post their inner-most thoughts and then get all upset when people comment about them? The beauty of an old-fashioned paper bound diary was that you could pretend the little lock 'n key worked and you could shove it very far under your mattress or deep down in your panty drawer and pretend that nobody was looking at it. With the world wide web you don't have that luxury. Sure, you're relieved of the fear that anybody is rifling through your underwear drawer, but all of a sudden you have all your thoughts and bad grammar EXPOSED and at the mercy of an audience. I'll just warn you now that I use WAY too many commas and I love a good "..." Sorry ~

I suppose that this as good a time as any to restart my journaling. I'm turning the big 4-0 this year (but not for a l-o-n-g while yet), my oldest daughter is turning 20 in November (how did THAT happen?), we're beginning to homeschool our youngest children (Carson, 7 yrs and Spencer 5 yrs) and I'm feeling good about what the future holds for us...Gary and I just celebrated our 8th wedding anniversary and I am not exactly sure how that happened...eight years is a lot o' years to have gone by so quickly. Sure, I have friends who've been together longer and others who've been together less but it's a record in my relationship book...and that's a good thing...See, I have this facade where everybody thinks I might have my act together or know how to get it together quickly, but I don't! In reality, I'm pretty messed up and it's a wonder Gary continues to stay with me except that he has the patience of a saint and he continues to forgive the way Christ's forgiven us all! Amen!

Oh yeah, I'm also proud to be a CHRISTIAN and that means that I lean toward the more conservative political views and that I'm working towards being what I know I should be, but I fall short all the time...I spend too much money on lame stuff, I drink too much and start fights, I lose my temper (often)...but God's grace is good and His mercies are new EVERY day and that's all you can do, right? Start again and again and again and hope to learn from the mistakes...right?

I'll try to keep up with stuff, but no promises!